You guys ever get depressed? Imagine being depressed your whole life. Well, that's me, in a nutshell. Here lately, I have really been depressed. More so than usual. My sister just passed away, and I missed a lot of work, trying to spend time with her. I am paying for it now, with two bad checks in a row, that really puts me behind. Trying to figure out gas for work, dog food, my food, phone bill, ect. It's a lot on me, and I feel like I'm about to crack. My dog, is my best friend and she is getting old. It hurts to see her getting old. We been stuck together like gorilla glue, since day one. I have to leave her at the house for hours on end, while I work. It hurts my feelings so bad to leave her by herself. So, if it feels like I am kind of laying low, or not posting as frequently, it's because of my mental state right now. I am sorry, hopefully I bounce back soon. Like, I want to mod my board some more, and do a lot to it, and set it up like a fido-network. It's like I look at it, and the desire is not there. I know it's my mental state. This weekend I didn't really get out of the bed, or hardly check my board. I just stayed in the bed watching Youtube. To top it all off, my buddy Nick, tore some kind of tendon on the bottom of his foot. He has a big boot, and walking around with a cane. He is also, a coworker. So I had to pull away from my work, to help him. Today, we had to cut some brick out around a window and door to fill it back in with brick. Another coworker, Jim, was sawing above his head, without a guard on the saw blade. The saw kicked back, and cut the crap out of his left arm. It was bad, he had to leave to get stitches. The doctor had to put 16 stitches in that mans arm. Being down two guys, means I'm doing the whole job by myself.
Please forgive me for being a little distant. Have a great day guys!

This is a very difficult subject to comment on because what I say would probably do no good anyway. Yes, I've been there and yes I know several people going through the same things you are continually. My biggest recommendation is to talk to someone on a weekly basis if your insurance can cover it, or if you can afford it. Get a Therapist. They won't solve your problems, BUT, it will help you greatly to understand why you are the way you are and what you can do to help yourself. My band wrote a bunch of song about battling depression, or dealing with someone who is going through it. Surprisingly, it has helped me just listening to the lyrics and understanding them. You need to understand yourself more.

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Re: depression
By: BiggieB to Morningstarr on Tue May 05 2026 08:50 pm

This is a very difficult subject to comment on because what I say would probably do no good anyway. Yes, I've been there and yes I know several people going through the same things you are continually. My biggest recommendation is to talk to someone on a weekly basis if your insurance can cover it, or if you can afford it. Get a Therapist. They won't solve your problems, BUT, it will help you greatly to understand why you are the way you are and what you can do to help yourself. My band wrote a bunch of song about battling depression, or dealing with someone who is going through it. Surprisingly, it has helped me just listening to the lyrics and understanding them. You need to understand yourself more.

Thanks for responding, I really don't have anyone to talk to. I have insurance and it covers things, like that. I talked to a therapist for about a year, back in the day. She got me on medications. I take Celexa for depression, lamictal as mood stabilizer, buspar for anxiety. It has made a big difference, but there is something still off. I know that I have ADHD, and it's BAD! It keeps me in a constant state, of boredom. Being in that state, every single day is miserable. My doctor won't treat my ADHD, because I am on an anti-depressant. You know how some people, can get depressed, but then they bounce back and snap out of it? That's not me! I have Persistent Depressive Disorder, and it will never go away. Also, really bad post traumatic stress disorder.



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